Bury The Garbage. Now Walk Away. Keep Walking.

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What a difference a year makes.

Last year at this time, things were drastically different for me.  I tried to jump start a relationship, and my plans to go to the USA were on hold due to a serious personal issue.  Needless to say, I wasn’t in the mood to do comedy, much less anything else.  By the end of November of 2015 I was beyond gassed both physically and emotionally.

Fast forward exactly one year later and what a difference a year makes.  I have booked my trip to head to Los Angeles and with a positive outlook and a clear head, it’s been easier to write material for both the Carnac character and for my regular stand-up sets too.

This summer was definitely the worst and the most disappointing in recent memory, aside from the garden and dinner date.  Outside of those two things and comedy, there was nothing remotely positive about it.

I found that it’s also a lot easier to write now.  For the first time in my life, I can honestly say that I am well on my way to successfully dealing with the “junk in my trunk” that not only hampered my relationships, but comedy as well.  The “junk” has been identified and mostly dealt with, and the narrow-minded, judgemental, arrogant, ignorant, lazy people who brought me down have been kicked to the curb.  No, more like it’s been buried at the garbage dump, never to return.

When you try to be somebody’s friend, or try to do your part in making a family relationship better, and you fail, it does take its toll on you.  Your mind isn’t as free and clear as it should be in order for you to write.  The writing becomes biased in a sense, maybe leaning too heavily on sarcasm, and yes I can prove it!  Last week at the local open mic I wrote a brand new opening the night before that actually worked with the crowd.  It wasn’t full of pity or depressing.  It came from an authentic place, making it easier to connect to with the audience.

When I say authentic, what do I mean?  Just had a meeting with my life coach on this one.  Authentic means coming from a real place, putting forward the most real and honest version of who you are.

It’s funny.  You can fool somebody into thinking that you “have your shit together” when you first meet them, but you cannot fool a comedy audience in the same manner.

Maybe I should make my potential dates get up and do stage time.  Comedy can expose who you are pretty quickly.  If you are broken and you try to put on an act like you got your shit together, you will fall like a house of cards.  Same thing will happen if you have anger issues, unforgiveness, panic attacks, if you are violent or misogynistic.  The comedy stage will expose it all, despite what you want others to see.

I wouldn’t have it any other way.

 

 

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